Church billboards, you’ve gotta love them. Mike and I pass a few different ones on a daily basis. I always look to see if God has left me a message. Sometimes they are ridiculous, but every once in awhile one really talks to me, which is what happened this week. As we passed I read a sign which read “You can’t trust and worry at the same time.” Yes you can I thought, but on further reflection I came to the conclusion that the sign was right, again.
All this time I’ve been worrying about MND, my symptoms, my life changes, the future, my timeline, ect. At the same time I’ve been saying, “Maybe I’ll get a miracle, maybe God will make me better?” I think I just say it but don’t fully trust that it could happen? This silly sign opened up my eyes.
I asked Mike how I am meant to “trust” that I will get better and not “worry” about my ever increasing symptoms. My very wise husband said “You’re not meant to trust you will get better, but trust that each day you are given you will make the most of. Trust that although this is hard you are here now and you can affect people’s lives in a positive way and trust that no matter what happens we can make it through.”
It took me awhile to let that sink in but I think he’s right. No one knows their timeline, some of us have been told ours but as my friend Tawn says, “No one has a crystal ball.” I guess all we can do is trust that today is another day we have been blessed with and try our hardest not to waste our time worrying about things we have no control over.
Like that speech song says, “Worrying is like trying to solve an algebra equation by chewing bubble gum.”
Thanks for the sign~
Hey Stace,
ReplyDeleteGreat post. Gee that Mike character can come up with the goods when it really counts can't he ... I guess it makes up for all the rubbish I've heard him talk in frisbee huddles :)
I saw a cool Church sign the other day (I don't really go in for these signs myself, but I was impressed with this one). It just said "GODISNOWHERE" and underneath it read, "NOW read that again".
Jonno.
Good sign Jonno!
ReplyDeleteAmen. I want to respond but can't quite put it into words. This trip is a very amazing one.
ReplyDeletelove and peace to us all as we ride the river.
Trust that is big, like falling backwards trusting the person behind you to catch you so you don't hit the ground. Trust, you need to develop a relationship with that person and really get to know them in order to trust them. So to surrender your life over to the Lord you must develop that relationship and by doing so the Trust becomes the reward God Bless love mom xoxo
ReplyDeleteThat's a good one Stace! It reminds me of the church sign me, Lizzie and Kel would drive by in Montana (this Christmas). It said something like:
ReplyDelete"If you pay attention, God will reveal himself to you"
Hahaha. We couldn't stop laughing about the way they chose to word that one!!
Stac
ReplyDeleteHow lucky you are to have Mike with you on this difficult journey. How ever long you have together is a blessing whether it be 5 or 50 years.
Lots of hugs
Betty
Debi, your statement is so insightful. What an amazing feeling of freedom to know someone well enough to trust them to catch you when you fall. Knowing that a loving God is in control of it all for all of us releases us from the burden of worry, allowing us to truly relax. That's huge. "God is now here"...(<--I really liked that sign!)
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