Finding Faith~

Just today I was discussing with Mike how I feel like my faith is wavering. I decided to come home from lunch and google search ALS miracles when I stumbled on this:

"Faith is a state of openness or trust. To have faith is to trust yourself to the water. When you swim you don't grab hold of the water, because if you do you will sink and drown. Instead you relax, and float. And the attitude of faith is the very opposite of clinging to belief, of holding on. In other words, a person who is fanatic in matters of religion, and clings to certain ideas about the nature of God and the universe, becomes a person who has no faith at all. Instead they are holding tight. But the attitude of faith is to let go, and become open to truth, whatever it might turn out to be."
Alan Watts.

Maybe sometimes faith finds you. I thought it was worth sharing. 

I had a dream~

Last night I had a dream, it was the most amazing dream the kind of dream were you know your dreaming but it feels so real.  I was in a city somewhere waiting for Mike, in my dream I knew I had MND but when Mike arrived we decided to walk home even though I knew I couldn't. 

As we began to walk I noticed that Mike wasn't helping me.  I realized I was walking on my own, no limp, no foot drag, no assistance.  I couldn't believe it, the sensation of walking was exhilarating, I began to cry, then run, then skip.  I spent  the rest of my dream walking back and forth on this invisible street in my mind.

It was so real, I half expected to be able to walk when I woke up.



I hope I have this dream again.